EH. FUCK. the weather is so FUCKing HOT and i cant FUCKing concentrate on my ss revision OR sleep peacefully. BOO!! i so hate the weather. i hope it FUCKing rains. PHEW. 5opercent of my anger vented by swearing.iloveyousomuch. <333333333333333333lol. i swear the weather is making me mad. EH. i go online the my baobehdar not online. GRR. and noone interesting is online too. how can like that. hahah. I WANT a new handphone. i want a nokia 6170. ): i was thinking about stuffs that happend and this stupid comment made me laugh.qazim: eh. woman. why hid and raudah walk so slow ah?wani : they are just admiring each other's books.qazim: BOOBS?!i swear i heard boobs. im no pervert. maybe i Do have bad hearing. okay. whatever. hahah. bye.
♥ 3:43 PM
hahahah. im so tired. and sleepy. hmms. today was an AWESOME day. LOL. the word is so addictive. thanks to the band people. all so creative and always think of new catchy words. hahah. amaths was so obscene. hahah. damn traumatising okay shairah. hahah. only me, wani and shai knows. and maybe others. =Xchem practical sucked. i ALWAYS fail it okay. so saddening. ): i wasnt born a chemist you know. everyone around the class comparing their 20-something marks and i FAILED. roar! so many practicals okay. aiyo. assembly was quite interesting. especially toh's lecture. example:me and mr saravanan have been travelling around TM. we have covered the whole region and there are so many temasekians without their shirts.. -whole school laughing-and 10seconds later..TUCKED in. =_=hahah. i have no comments. went fer friday prayers. AS USUAL. went back home. after that, meiling and dodo picked me up at the busstop in a taxi. went to mediacorp centre. second time there fer me. meiling wanted to collect the prize she won during some perfect 10 thingy. no interesting celebs there. ): we were sad okay. and to make ourselves happy, we took photos with the mediacorp sign. O_o.met this radio dj and they began to take photos. HAHAH. i dont even listen to chinese radio and i recognised the dj. and they dont. WHAHAH. took some stupid bus after that. planned to go home. took the bus. i was complaining loudly [as usual] about the bus not being air-conditioned. the driver kept insisting there WAS. hahah. damn funny ah that driver. so friendly.dropped down somewhere in bishan. 2km to junction8. HAHAH. according to the acs boy who was sitting in front of us. lol. and we WALKED and "JOGGED" with our stomachs in chest out all the way to j8. HAHAH. funny lah. all hyper like siao. after the 2km walk/jog, we finally reached j8. lotsa hotties. hahah. chio bus and shuai ges.all from rjc. hahah. major coolness. we looked kind of out of place and lost there. whatever. looked at the bag i SO wanted to buy but didnt. [anyone care to spare me 40bucks?] walked around. took pics of oh so cute foolscap papers. hahah. retards ah. explore some more. went to take mrt home.more pics taking session. spastic okay. but fun ah. lol. i should start studying from now onwards man. hahah. dont go out to often. oo. la. la. okay. bye.
♥ 8:36 PM
DISGUSTING SONG EVER: honey by wang cyndi. O_osweetest song: TONG HUA!! damn nice ah. everyone go listen now. dont have i send you. =X
study study study. so many amaths formulas in my head. im so gonna die tomorrow. amaths exam!! i better pass ah. hahah. im so scared ah!! i studied from 3.30 to 8 okay. hahah. so proud of myself. althought still have 3 more chapters to go. die.
school was normal today. i hate eng so badly. all because of the show that we're supposed to watch ah. supposed to be watching the stand up comedy "it takes two", but then it was sold out. probably because eng took a loooong time to book the tix. now we have to watch PCK the musical. of all shows.history. verma spent exactly 7minutes lecturing us on how we should walk to class, our attire, our attitude and all those boring stuffs. spent half the lesson sleeping. hahah. english was a total waste of time. walked around school with my darling lishean searching fer my ss homework. which i lost. i think. wth man.went home with asri straight after school. 14. full of smelly people. while the rest of our wonderful friends were doing their elective papers. mwahahah. ANYWAY, there were so many NEIGHBOURHOOD school people at the interchange. me and asri obviously felt so left out among the sea of neighbourhood school people.hahahs. since our school is above average? bleargh. im crapping. side effects of studying amaths. aiyooo.
EH. i think verma HATES neo. because she loves our class too much [because im in 4U] and or that neo is younger, better and prettier than her. HAHAH. i read shuqi's blog and i so HAVE to agree with her. dempster sucks. hahah.
♥ 8:31 PM
eh. im so dissapointed in someone. all out to embarrass me. TSK TSK TSK. im so disssapointed. mwahahah. ):
PE was DUMB. i ran 2.4. urgh. wanted to run 2.4 LAST week. but mark chan said since i failed, i do NOT need to run anymore. and now hes asking me to run. O_o. what the hell. in the end i passed. hahah. so happy man. maybe i passed because of the girl's motivation. the malay girls, yimei, yilin, mingkee and all. hahah. so sweet of them. (:malay was super duper fun OKAY. did construction of sentences using weird words. HAHAH. yoi. took 10 to tamp. crapped lots and thinking of the past. how sweet life had been when we were sec1s and 2s. went to BK with alia, shai, rusy, marl, siti and hid. i think sticking fries IN a person's nose is so goddamn disgusting okay!! hahah.went to tm with rusy, hid and marl. saw lotsa temasekians. neoprints booth infested with temasekians. this is what happens when our school is the ONLY one with a half day. met vicky and all. so many people i know. hahah. met the boy named ashley. he RAN away when he saw me. O_o. do i even look scary?! and he thought i was following him. that boy is so egoistic i tell you. hahah.went back school to wait fer meiling and dora. their oral ended so freaking late. went BACK to tm because we wanted to study. HAHAH. what a total waste of time. met MORE temasekians. went to CS's food junction to study. i soooo love the lighting there okay. so nice to take pictures. orangey orangey light. ooo. i like. (:and of all people, we had to meet jared oh and mark chan. O_o. weird coupling. hahah. studied amaths till the evenings. nahh. it was only until 5.30. im so proud i can do at least TWO questions okay. all thanks to DORA, me and meiling LOVE amaths. hahah. -thankkk goddd i founddd YOUUUU.- mwahahahah. =Xi was addicted to doing amaths sums just now. but the com distracted me. thats why im down here typing this entry. EH. i saw fira on tv just now. mwahahah. singing eh? taufik's showcase. coolness. alia lost her file. anyone saw it? please return it to her. thanks.
♥ 9:00 PM
ahh. ferget about my previous entry. ive just sunk into depression again. what the fuck ah.
today. went to my cousin's one year old birthday party. only a few people there since most of them had gone home. was playing around with my cousin when he nearly fell. a cheena boy from one corner of the house shouted at me "wahlao qazim. all your fault ah". i was shocked. how the hell did he know MY name?turns out he was from the same school as me. a boy named ashley. i was like how did he know me? then he said he was in the same class as X and Y. okaay. i knew X and Y. he also said that X and Y kept talking about me in class and said stuffs which OBVIOUSLY hurt my feelings.i was shocked. i treated them so nicely as if they were my siblings. and how could they just spread LIES to their friends about me? what the hell did i do to them? i dont spread lies about you people dont i? i sms`ed X and X didnt reply after the second sms i sent. guilty arent you?im feeling so pissed. fucked up. dissapointed. how could you guys do this to me? at least be nice about it and say sorry or something. but no. there wasnt even a simple sorry or whatsoever. urgh. and cant some people just mind their own business? you can be as kaypoh as you want. but still you dont need to tell the whole family/friends/cousins/world population that YOU know "things" right. like some things are meant to be kept confidential and all. but NO. some spread it to the whole family until I felt embarassed.
i can be a girlish guy or a guyish guy fer all i care. but isnt it whats inside that matters. dont judge a book by its cover. its so saddening when people say hurtful things okay. you think im made of what? metal ah? everything others say will be reflected back ah? fuck lah. im human.
♥ 8:40 PM
i feel happy making people feel happy. but wont it be happier if people will make me feel happy?im watching the MALAY music extragavanza. cool man. first time im listening to malay music. yeah. all the malay artistes from malaysia and singapore. combined together. and the pck skit was like so propoganda? malaysia and singapore must work together? the woman host talks too much.
i thought the vince guy was good looking. then alia said he sucked. i have to agree with her. because he looked so cocky and arrogant. ptuii. anyway, chrissypoo did something to his hair and he looked so weird. hahah. so childish. i mean boyish looking.the show was quite an eye opener fer me because i dont really listen to MALAY music. eii. i think i have a crush on this girl. mwahahah. =X
♥ 10:07 PM
BOO!!.
lessons were as usual. watched the part2 of the movie during malay lesson. the fighting scene was damn cool man. hmm. magic powers and all. hahah. went to the mosque with asri. someone cut hair sia. lol!! ugly ah. not nice!! so short. look so old some more. aiyo. went back to school to wait fer meiling and dora. was so freaky man! got chased by those np sec1s. me and mei were like, what the hell? my god. those people are goddamn irritating man. chase people non-stop and even wanted to strangle us. all pissed of lor. even the sec3s couldnt chase them away.ended up in the 4R class. where me and mei couldnt see the people we wanted to see. URGH. in the end tan teck yong shouted at them. MBWAHAHAH. good. went to tm. cut hair. ate at ljs. tried perfumes. saw this super duper nice pink op shirt at CS. went to missha. bleargh. walked around until we were bored.and decided to go back to school again with mei and dodo. O_o. hahah. lame man. wanted to see people. basketball match going on. sec1 and 2s against bedok south. my dear friend jaspal said we were losing by "a lot a lot of points" so sad. ): only saw two of the many people i wanted to see. hahah. so sad!!went back home. saw this temasekian. she walked up to me and asked whether i was in npcc and all. then we started talking. hahah. so weird. i dont even know that girl and she started talking to me. turns out to be vicky's friend. scare me man. hahah.
im so irritated with the sec1s behaviour. get a life? thanks. dont go strangling and chasing people around. thanks. ill appreciate it a lot.
♥ 7:30 PM
hahah. everyones happy. everyones cheering up. whee.i love the feeling of being happy. being normal. just like everyone else. :) heheh. im a happy happy person. no more conflicts. im free of troubles. i should probably just think of my exams. and focus!!in the morning i was SO BLOODY pissed with this indian guy in the 229 bus. so damn inconsiderate you know. so much space and he didnt move in. GRR. all because of him, gwnb couldnt take the bus. GRR. inconsiderate bastard. doesnt your mum teach you any manners?chem was so weird because li song was SO quiet!! so scary man. hahah. and me and celia found out the top 10 reasons why li song is quiet. =_=" [pms,stomach cramps, miss jeremiah and the list goes on] hahah. geog was FUN. we played games in the com lab. geog-related games that is. first time geog lesson was fun. whee.
history. so paiseh ah. fer the first time, 4U came early fer history class. since 4R came late, i lectured them. "wahlao. you all come so late. think you all what. i want to study you know. exams next week ah. blabla.." verma laughed at me and said "qazim, qazim. so drama". hahah. and i ended up sleeping throughout the lesson. HAHAH.malay lesson was fun. hahah. watched a stupid movie about hang tuah. which i OBVIOUSLY didnt understand at all. aiya. magic powers and all. princess of ledang mountain? what the. hahah. watched soccer match with siti and rusy. and her cousin and friends soon came. 5U versus 4A. obviously 4A won. 9-2. MAJOR COOLNESS.lotsa drama. sliding. people falling. goldkeeper not catching ball. the soccer match IS fun!!. whee. i LOVE soccer. hahah. YEAH RIGHT. i shall be more sensitive to people's feelings and not expect everything to go my way. i should care fer others no matter how angry i am at them. thats the lesson ive learnt. (:
♥ 8:36 PM
gossiping and chocolate chip cookies cures depression? probably.
anyway, i shall be happy and not dwell on unhappy things. im gonna take part in the inter-school blog whatever shit thingy. sounds fun. thats why i took part. and so did the rest of the class. hahah. but i think i probably wont even get into the quarter finals or something. because i cant write good stuffs.all my entries are boring. and not funny. lameness at its extreme. malay exams tomorrow. shall do my best altho nora said its gonna be super duper hard. wish me luck please. amaths corrupts my beautiful mind. i can SO predict that i will fail the test we had just now. differentiation? oh puhlease.
trynta change the lyrics of english songs into malay is FUN. hahah. "bayi lelaki, hilangkan nafas". and i regretted rejecting nazurah's offer to go to the taufik showcase just now. grr.see. im depressed no more. gossiping and chocolate chip cookies helps. im now happy!! i think. (:
♥ 10:37 PM
alia. i wrote yesterday's entry in a state of angry. hahah. and now.. today's entry.
to my group of friends whom i have been with for 3years and others. i DONT hate you guys. its just that i feel that we are drifting apart. i cant really describe it but I feel that things arent the same as before. maybe everyone is too caught up in their own stuffs. cca's, studies, exams and all. i seriously dont know. its not like i can do anything about it.
to everyone,
yeah. i think im sensitive. after four years. umm. actually more than that. i have been made fun of and criticised and cursed and everything. after more than 4years of this and NOT breaking down you call me sensitive? its more of patience darling. i have ENDURED so much. how can i not be hurt. everytime i get insulted, i try to push the insult away.
i ferget everything. i forgive the person. maybe the person is just plain bored. and so i just treat it as something normal. part of my everyday life. i though if i didnt say anything all these insults will end. but no. it didnt. it continued. yeah. its fun to make fun of me. sometimes i DONT mind. but there's a limit to my patience okay. some jokes i dont care. some i take it seriously. because its OVERBOARD.
how does it feel if EVERYONE is against you and you are left ALL ALONE to defend fer yourself. no word you say will make you win the arguement against them. you are just one pathetic soul. you cant make a difference. someone once said to me that if someone makes fun or bully me, i should just speak up and fight back. oh yeah. from that day onwards, i make an effort to fight back.
and made the other party angry when they are actually the one at fault. i have a big mouth. i speak without thinking. if you insulted me in the first place, why cant i insult you back. its normal right? im tring to FIGHT back remember. and then people say im too insensitive and heartless and ungentlemanly. so what im supposed to do? just sit there and watch the person criticising me and do nothing about it?
at least its better than being insensitive eh? everything about me is a joke eh? then why are you guys the only one laughing and not me? ah. whatever. maybe i was born to be made fun of or something. maybe i was born to make other people happy. maybe i was born just to be mocked and criticised as if it was as normal as breathing oxygen. maybe im the person where everyone can vent their anger on. im some kind of punching bag you see.
how nice. i hate being pushed around like a ragdoll. i have feelings you know. im HUMAN. i can be emotional when i want. i can be sad. i can be happy. i have the RIGHT to be sad or pissed or evil or whatever. my mouth is BIG. i talk too much. at the wrong time some more. and making the whole world is pissed. im trying very hard to speak less. but do you think its so easy? might as well just NOT say anything right?
i hate being called names. i hate being treated like shit. i hate being depressed. i think the WHOLE world has something against me no matter how nice i TRY to be to them. its no use being nice man. people just take you fer granted. i cant make the whole world LOVE me but its much much better if people appreciate MY existence. no matter how much you hate me. im EVIL. go on and hate me. phew. vented my anger without using vulgarities. maybe people's opinion of me has changed from good to bad. i dont know. maybe my friends will hate me. or something. i really cant do anything if that happens. no matter what i still treat them as my friends. even if they hate me. hmm.
mood: depressedsong : welcome to my life -simple plan.
♥ 8:17 PM
the teenage icon thing was a total blast!!
MAJOR HOTNESS. so many HOT people there. alia cant make me jealous. =p im so proud of fira a member of the fellow kuzzeh wuzzeh buzzeh fer being able to get to the semi-s i think. yeah. (: our shouting and screaming and pom-pom-ing didnt come to waste after all yeah? :)) super duper happy. heheh.shall continue more tomorrow. and i soo cant believe taufik batisah came just to support my cousin. MAJOR coolness okay. hahah
♥ 9:20 PM
my thousands of girlfriends. uncountable man. hahah
me and gf no.1 faezah. deprived. sri lankan.
me and gf no.2 cheryl. weiwei.
me and gf no.3 dora. dodo.
me and gf no.4 lihwei. ashley. retard.
and lastlyyy..
me and gf no.5 yuling. ling ling.
but i shall always be FAITHFUL to..
HER.
my ONE and ONLY..
DARLING.
♥ 12:08 PM
jack jack party
us
the SUPER HUGE cake
the swinging competition
im STUCK on you.
teenage kids.
going on a family outing. shall continue tomorrow. TATA
♥ 7:21 PM
i soo fucking
HATE hui yi or hui yu or whatever her fucking name is. MAJOR BITCH!
i shall talk about that fucking bitch later. anyways, PE was so tiring man. ran our 2.4km run. which i failed. HAH. strolled a bit and ran when i was reaching the checkpoint. li song is such a good running buddy. thats how we failed together. how sweet. (: made a new friend while running. a fellow temasekian i met in bugis. whee.i was so dramatic during the run. coughed like crazy and nearly vommited when i reached the finishing line. HAH. this is what i get by not eating breakfast. thank god sadiq saved the day by selling me his oreo's. =_=" morni is such a bitch too. i cant stand her at all man. me and yee chuan;gabrielle were super depressed. sighs.gave fatin and shida their pressies. soft toys. hahah. fatin's bear was called donovan and shida's chicken was called cheeky. hahah. anyone remembered the drugs advertisement?? went to 711 with siti. met up with hid, lubna and faizal. crapped and bitched and i sang like a crazy man. truth or dare. fun. (:went back to school. sat at the driveway. looked at the np people suffering. chatted with the sec1s and 2s. these people brightened up my day. x) i love them man. no matter how irritating they are. ANYWAY, gavin, jaspal and zheng jie were just talking to me happily. they were playing around with my wonderful storybook.
SUDDENLY, this fucking pms-y bitch walked up to the THREE of them and scolded them for making noise. and they were punished by standing in the hot sun. WHAT THE FUCK.
go get a life please. how could she just TORTURE people for no reasons. my poor friends. how dare that BITCH torture you.those people are [supposedly] NOT FEELING WELL. leg cramps and stitch. of course they CAN talk. you dont expect them to sit there like a dumb mummy dont you? URGH.URGH. then i talked to them during their break and I got scolded. poor little innocent ME. URGH. "qazim, please do not talk to them. or they will end up doing more punishment" i wanted to just continue talking to them but im putting their lives at stake. FUCK AHH. bitch. and she told the sec1s during debrief not to talk to SENIORS. bitch bitch bitch. how i wish i could just burn you and blast you off to outer space. making no sense here. too pissed. depressed no more.
♥ 8:26 PM
"
but hes the nicest what" phrase of the yesterday. made famous by faezah the kaka. x)
chattd with someone today. glad i could cheer someone up just by talking crap. hahahs. studied physics for arnd an hour. now i know more abt electricity. keke`. HAPPY BDAE SHIDA.!! this is so saddening. so many bdaes in one mnth. and im bankrupt. i owe so many people pressies mann. wht to do??!!
♥ 3:27 PM
feets aching. brain dead. hahhs`. feel so sleepy now. but i shall endure. dunt wna sleep so fast.school. played with my teddy bear and wani's teddy bear. hahahs. both of them are gonna get married or something. we were like so bored? so we matchmaked both bears. bleargh`. after our OH so enriching hmt lesson, went to PRAY. met up with rasul and all. hahhs`. crapped lots. took pics in the mosque. =________="
after my wonderful praying session, went back to school with asri. saw *someone_*. hahhs`. met up with ashlihwei, pei yun and jeannie ho at the library arhh. played catching and everyone ended up laughing on the floor cos i was too zi lian and kept taking pics of myself. HAHH`. too bad. bleahh`.waited for faezah the great. she took a blardee long time seh. go mama shop i tink. after that we set off lo. saw another someone. hmms`. imissyou lorr. so long never talk to you. but u dunt seem to care at all. like u will even remember that i exist. went to tanah merah. asri called and he soo had to make me jealous doesnt he??took the train all the way to dhoby ghaut when we were supposed to stop at orchard? faezah was telling the story of how her whole class skipped lessons. she took abt 10mins to finish her story man. hahahs. straight to the point please? reached wisma at last. lihwei saw her fren's fren's fren fren. hahh. like i even care. everyones her fren lahh.heeren. then cine. didnt find the person i wantd to. hahahs. i got a free cd from this woman. whoo`. went to century square aftr that. met mei n dodo. but i dao`ed mei. met lubna. went missha. but mr terence wasnt there. =( everyone was dissapointed kayy. hahahs. we came all the way for him and he wasnt there. aww.oh yahh. our choir has
GOLD. whee`.
♥ 8:57 PM
lihwei!!. embarass me only sia!!. what am i going to do now?? where to hide my face? in a bucket ahh. i BOX u up the u know ahh. hahahahha.
♥ 9:23 PM
todae is such an interesting day. got to know SOOO many stuffs.
1.
HE stead with HER. celia and hid knows who im talking about. what an imperfect couple. bleahh`. wasted.2.
SHE is back. bleahh`. my one week crush. hahahs.3.
hid np knows mr missha. WHAT THE HELL!!apparently, mr missha somehw transferred frm bugis to century square? hid visitd the shop. askd for his name which was terence. hahahs. her fren also like him sia. can go join lihwei and mei mei. =p and now i have the missha card with me. hahahs. TERENCE. doesnt suit his face.school was interestng. skipped elect with hidayah. wnt to 711 instead. what a blaredee hot day sia. higher mother tongue was a bore. cos teachr didnt teach. went for chem class and then wathed the balakrishnan thing. straits time pocket money cheque exchanging ceremony? something lyk dat. bleargh`.skipped extra physics. went to watch soccer match with celia and hid. waited until 5 for the match to start. the rest of the class started to join us. and we lost the match against 5U sia. 1-0? siighs`. wen bin seemed super duper upset. hid wantd to cry. nvmnvm. its just a game kayy. x)) its good we got into the semi`s.faqeh looked COLOURFUL today. hahahs. BAAADD colour coordination. went home with dolla and meimei. crapped with hanis and his frens. hahahs. hanis so cute mann. as in looks and character. hahahs. he better not turn into one of those mats. bleargh`.
♥ 8:36 PM
thanks to all those who smsed me and askd whthr im still alive. x)) i still am okayy. hehehs`.
i hate people who pick on me. i am nice to them and they treat me like shit. bloody hell. crappy shit. tuesdaynormal lessons. after school had np. supposedly. u guys didnt even take our attendance. somebody picked a fight with me. i think almost everyone know the story already. oh well. borrowed badmintons. played badmintons the whole day. super fun arhh`. read lihwei's blog fr details. x) ashtheOHsogreat. wantd to disturb the sec1s n 2s. but huiyi the blardee bitch was there. giving us THAT look. ptuii` lahhs. jst as i was abt to forgive u for the 4yrs of torture u have given me. so me faezah lihwei dodo n mei took 14. crapped a lot. mei went home. the rest wnt to kfc and bitched. hahhs`. so crap sia. hahahs. soo many things i found out.todayim so glad im still alive kayy. hahahs. =pp i dont wnt to die that fast do i? umms. physics. melvin walkd out of the classrom jst as eng was abt to lecture him. drama begins. too bad eng came back 5mins later. grr`. crapped with celia n xingwen outside during physics. didnt bring wrksheet what. cow and chicky!!homework time after school. mrs hong didnt come fr it. speech day stuffs. received sms`es frm 3people all asking whether im still alive not. hahhs`. i AM. thnks niwaes. after school, went home lo`. hid wntd to buy some tidbits. she thought one of the customers was the owner of the shop. =________________=" wthh`.IM ALIVE. WHEE`. happy belated bdae fatin? hahahhas.
♥ 8:45 PM
nobody seems to be reading my blog. only faj and adi. whatever.
day has been fine. boring boring lessons. english was fun. hahhs`. i keep scaring yee chuan the gabrielle lahh. her reaction so funny!! so cute sia. hahahs. mdm audra didnt come fr the high achievers thingy. so shai planned on a pool outing this saturday. plannin to go twn or smtng. whee`. hope everyone is free. ^_^.sec3 cleand the np room which was filled with maggots cos of the chicken bones. tsk tsk tsk. sec4s. so disgusting mann. i just realised that ill no longer hold the medic box. anymore. thts like what i always do? althought it isnt really my job? hmm. and how can anyone change so fast.from so cute adorable and innocent to someone who is so heck-care and doesnt seem to remember that i dont even exist. siighs`. what a waste. anyways after school, took a taxi with hidayah and cheryl yeo weiwei. dropped off at tanah merah mrt. =____=" hahahs. cos dey wantd to go simei. and dey dragged me. so i jst followed. for fun. nehmiind. noone would get wht im trynta say niwaes.
in the morning, recess, after school. saw the sec1s. gavin ong who always disturbed me kept saying 'good morning sir'. its all so weird. suddenly all the sec1s are acting so nice and weird after i passed out. im nt used to it. i wan my np life back. bleahh`.
♥ 8:28 PM
pop. [[020405_ncobatch2304]]
parade sucked. i made so many mistakes. my rifle couldnt shoot. i turned at the wrong time. all those sorts of mistakes. had lunch and all. concert was so-so. my speech was okay. some said it was the best speech. HAHH. thnkw people. ^_^ celine mentioned my name in the speech. meiling didnt. hmphh`.
dance was so-so. drama was funny. sec1s n 2s mimicked us. how dare they call me mr gay. hmphh`. the performance of the EX-treme cis was hilarious. our performance kinda sucked. but we gave weiliang sir his well deserved mp3 player which we lost during the nco camp. key changing ceremony was damn solemn.
the 4gals started crying. soon, all the memories of np started flooding back. seeing them cry made me cry too. our 4years of torture had came to an end. shld i be happy? shld i be sad? npcc is part of my life. all the friends ive made. after we pass out, will we still talk to each othr? will we even remember all the moments we spent together?
ming yang, who always disturbed me during np, picked a purple balloon and came up to me saying," sir. dunt be sad. dunt cry. nahh. i give u this balloon" although maybe he gave it for the sake or giving or anything, i just find that gesture very sweet and heartwarming. at least he cares. right?
cried my hearts out. talked to all the cis. told them how i felt throughout my whole np life. they told me that my character clashes with what is expected of an np cadet. they told me i deserve my sergeant cadet. if i hated np so much, why did i even bother to attend np? why didnt i quit in the first place? why?
went to the canteen. distributed sweets to the whole unit. received a keychain frm jinyi, peiyun and others. altho its a small gift im still quite touched. thnks guys. x) huiyi and alvin debriefed us. got cd's, notes and sweets i tinks. weijie, the squad leader gave us a bean bear and hello panda. hahhs`. so sweet. took pics with the cis.
wnt home fr a while. met up with jaime cel and mei. wnt to seoul garden fr dinner. met up with the rest. had quite a fun time altho i didnt really tlk to them. cel was there to tlk to me. hahhs`. forever giving me food. like shes my mother lidat. we MUST get fat kayy. created some sort of 'explosion' with the food. hahhs`. funny sia. so much flame. everyone stared.
after eating sooo much food, i became fatter. went to the pavillion[?] the guys wntd to go play LAN. me jaime cel mei n dora ended up at some pool place. looks lyk a gambling den. with all the bengs and lians. scary mann. in the end, everyone wnt there. cis came. -yawns- soon everyone left. our last outing. together.
no more np. no more drills. no more changing to full u. no more holding of rilfes. no more standing in the sun. no more polishing of boots. no more pt. no more 'motivating' lectures. no more cis. no more cadets. no more smelly np room. no more lame n pervertic jokes. no more laughing like crazy. no more gossip. no more bitchin.
no more arguing bargaining n complaining. no more act blur take cover. no more going out to eat after np. no more hiding in np room eating cashew nut biscuits. no more honeyBs n green tea. no more squad cheer. no more brotherhood. no more getting scolded. no more pumpings. no more making fun of zq. no more parades. no more memories??
no. memories will always stay with us. as we go on. we remember. all the times we had together. as our lives change. come whatever. we will still be. frens forever. will we? will we forget each othr one day? Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound. siighs`. frens forever.
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